Familiar hand ~Chapter 3

Reclined in my bed, I wondered, “What does this mean, does this mean that his daughter is my future partner, but why did this only happen to me but not somebody else.” Questions lingered in my mind. It has been 2 weeks since the incident, nor have I gone to school or even outside. Fear, an exceptional one, fear of the unknown, fear of love, I didn’t even know what I was afraid of, but something gave an uneasy feeling to my heart and consciousness. Looking up at the ceiling fan I rested, thinking about the unreal reality. Although I could hear, see, and talk, it almost felt as if I couldn’t, and that I was imprisoning myself, with fear and strange, an unpleasant feeling that could nullify anyone. Suddenly a high-pitched sound provoked my half-conscious state of mind, bringing me back to reality. I slowly turned my head to the left, as I saw the big Ben pointing towards 1. With realization came another uneasy, unavoidably feeling, hunger, my stomach was crying for help, my body crying to help, but my mind held back against their wish. A sudden thought popped up like a notification questioning my existence, “What am I doing, what is the point of doing this, laying in my bed, watching TV, eating, sleeping, I haven’t done another single thing in 2 weeks, is this who I am, is this who I want to be?” I sprung out of my bed, as hunger again cried before eventually getting its wish fulfilled. After lunch, I decided, that if not today then never, if not me then nobody, I have to get out, I need to find answers, and I will. My heart beating rapidly, my eyes couldn’t see anything except the door nob, my hands Impatient to open the door, my legs ready to start running, my mind ready to attain freedom, questions were raging through my blood, and they wouldn’t stop without answers, a sudden push from behind, it was non-other than my curiosity, In an instant I opened the door and placed my foot outside, all the fear vanished into thin air, making me realize that all these days where I kept scaring myself was for nothing. A clear blue sky, a bright red sun, and a calm warm breeze enlightened me for the human I am, a living being getting nourished by its mother, nature.